Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Dream weaver, dream catcher; Dream maker, dream breaker

Welcome to the nightmare of dreams… What a treacherous world we live in, based on empty human conventions and promises. Somewhere behind the haze there’s a cloud, and somewhere in that cloud there’s rain! Be wary of the dreams you chase, for those chasing the wrong dreams may end going in full circles before eventually ending up back where they started - wondering what was the point.
When we know that our most cherished dream is the wrong dream to have, the stronger person will say "goodbye" to this lifelong dream, rather than pursue it recklessly in hopes of changing the inevitable consequences.


Dear as we may hold them to, painful as it may be to let them go, I honestly do believe that it takes a stronger person to know when to surrender and to start working at fulfilling new dreams; some of them not even yet dreamt… for every decision we make in the present directly affects our future. The world, unfortunately, does not revolve around me; or you; or any single one of us, and everything we do today will involve others tomorrow.

Then there are those who work at fulfilling mediocre dreams, not realizing that their not-yet-dreamt-dreams could have made them happier; not knowing that the dreams they chase now are actually lesser means of what could have been the ultimate castle-in-the-air made real. In cases like this, the dreamer is usually disillusioned into thinking that the dreams they pursue are theirs alone, when in actually fact, the dreamer in question is subconsciously choosing the easiest dream for him/her to achieve.

One man’s dream may not be another’s. Those blessed with opportunity, support, brains, and talent should at all times choose to pursue the dream that promises the fulfillment of one’s full potential, though rocky the road may be! It is the stronger person who realizes his/her full potential; and it is the stronger person that will first get over the refutation caused by disappointment of old dreams not satisfied.

In the end, the strongest person is probably the one that chooses to follow a dream that though not dear, is probably the “best” dream for everyone (self + all loved ones) when finally fulfilled. Let me repeat; the world as we know it DOES NOT revolve around us, which is why sometimes the dreams we choose to dream and the dreams we choose to chase (sadly yet most of the time inexorably) must differ. For everything we did yesterday will affect friends, family, enemies and strangers, for better or worst, tomorrow…

Confused? Let’s have a recap. Remember, this is when we know that the dream we dream is the wrong dream to have. Not an impossible dream, but a wrong dream (in some cases, the wrong dream is actually the easier dream to achieve – which is why it’s wrong *DUH*):

1) The strong will choose to fight for this dream (damn stuborn and sometimes stupid), regardless of the consequences to self and others.
2) The stronger will have the courage to let go (sometimes the dream is hidden till only bittersweet memories remain; sometimes it is locked away till a secret dream is born; and sometimes it is crushed thus becoming a dead dream).
3) The strongest will say goodbye gracefully, then proceed in pursuing new dreams – dreams that may not be as romantic, glorious, glamorous, or grandiose as the dreams of old, but in the end; are for the best.

Me? I am the dreamer of dreams yet to come. Resistance is never futile, and I’m tired (it’s like midnight; esok kerja oi) …


"And then take me disappearing through the smoke rings of my mind; Down the foggy ruins of time, far past the frozen leaves; The haunted, frightened trees, out to the windy beach; Far from the twisted reach of crazy sorrow; Yes, to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free; Silhouetted by the sea, circled by the circus sands; With all memory and fate, driven deep beneath the waves; Let me forget about today until tomorrow…" Bob Dylan’s "Mr Tambourine Man" (1965)

Tonight I’ll sleep better dreamless, for though I adore building castles in the air, I know it’s best to build a real foundation first… Y‘got ‘wot I mean?

“It takes a strong person to admit when a situation has completely fallen apart. It takes a stronger person to walk away from that situation. And it takes an even stronger person to pick up the pieces after walking away.”